Apr. 24th, 2017 06:46 pm
higure_san: (Wondering)
So this is my first entry here. I wanted to write the first post 2 weeks ago, when I was down with bad sore throat that rendered me voiceless, like literally no voice at all that I had to take MC! But yeah, I was preoccupied with other stuff and didn't manage to jot anything down. My voice is coming back slowly , it's not as raspy as previously but it's still not normal yet. The cough persists though... and I suspect it will last for another month or so, just as previously.

I finally watched Shigatsu Kimi no Uso (Your Lie in April) live action and I love it! Came across the soundtrack and insert songs and stumbled upon Seven's Orange (2nd Ending song for the anime version) and I absolutely love love love them all! I have a feeling that I'd be playing the songs on loop for the next few days :)

Apart from that, we had a reunion, my classmates when I was in Standard 6 of primary school! Someone actually went through all the troubles to initiate the group and surprisingly we've gotten everyone except for this one guy (and to be honest, I have no recollection of him ^^; ). So we decided a meet-up is a must and Saturday night was supposed to be the first official reunion but more than half of the class couldn't make it. Next time we'll plan it during school holiday, I guess since quite a number are actually teachers and some are living outside Klang Valley area. 

On the other note... my cousin will be leaving for Hong Kong at the end of this month :(  She'll be outstation for the next 6 to 8 months and I'd loose one ear to listen to all my whining , cries and stories...

It will be tough years coming ahead, if I'm accepted into the Masters programme... and that means more time and energy time spent for work, less break and holidays (there goes my periodical must-have-holiday T_T) and to be honest I need all the support I could get in next 4 years... To be honest... I'm scared, to a point of wishing that I'd not make the list...

This will probably be among the places where I rant...

I'm oncall tomorrow.... and the precall blues have started *sighs*
higure_san: (Thinking & watching silently)
I went through my private journal these past year... Been reflecting bits by bits important events since early this year and if there are still goals this year that I haven't achieved, what mistakes I could learn from, how can I improve myself in the future and what not.

As I went through the entries, I noticed at some point in my baby steps in medical field, I went from "Have I done justice to my patients?" to "Why do I even bother?". It was during the time I had many difficulties & unvoiced frustration during my ICU rotation. It was also the time when I decided I'm through with internal medicine, and so I said bye-bye to my dream of being a geriatrician and moved on to something else.

And then there's that short trip to Kundasang, Sabah. I call these medical relief aid as "refresher meet-up" because it is just as the name implied- it refreshes and rejuvenate my initial intentions of jumping into this profession, sort of like a knock on the door. And it's also usually the time where we get the chance to meet our ex-teachers and seniors who would usually ask our updates and remind us with their words of wisdom.

Different people have different ideas on trips and retreats. I think 'refresher meet-up' like this is as important as going on holidays :)

I still have that hesitancy somewhere at the back of my mind; and it usually comes out when I'm facing difficult people.

But at least, the question is no longer "Why do I even bother?"
Now it hovers between "Have I done justice?" and "What else can we offer?"

Still new in this field, still a longwinding road ahead... I wonder what will be the questions in the future?

あの日が伝える今日を つなぐ果てしない道
知らない時代でそっと 誰かが 背中を支えてる
どこに続いてる? 風に問いかけても
どこにも 答えは無くて
The past that led to today is connected by an endless road
People in times and places that you don't know have been gently supporting you
Where will this road go? Even if you ask the wind
There's no answer there
僕らがつないでいく (Bokura ga Tsunaideiku)
嵐 Arashi
higure_san: (Happy)
Now that I think about it, we've known each other for a long time
(Ai Wo Sakebe . Lyric cr: yarukizero )

Totally in love with this song! I knew that they were coming out with a new single, but to be honest, I couldn't really be bothered since the routine nowadays is : wake-up , go to work , work , figuring out the DM audit / skin presentation , go home + watch Arashi vid on the way , got home , eat , either checked out latest update in LJ / watched a little tv / sleep (more likely to sleep than anything else since I wake up between 5 to 5.30 am every day) .
Weekends would be my day to catch up with whatever downloads that I've missed , trying to meet those people whom I haven't met in quite a while , or... study if not oncall...

<< Once a month I'd help to facilitate in a houseman prep course; once in a blue moon, I'd go "crazy" and goes off some trip.... well... Japan in April, Singapore in July, Ranau in September and Penang in May (actually it was for a course) and October. After last impromptu trip to Singapore (lured by [ profile] slowcharlotte ) I err.... don't think I'll be going abroad for quite a while...

  But last few weeks, I had the chance to watch the Digitalian con + Suppin Digitalian and some other shows (including the VSA with Hawaiian sp) and all these just remind me why I love Arashi in the first place. Somehow it's nostalgic. Although no one to fangirl with means me fangirling alone either in the train or in my room, jalan je! Haha!

  Today is the last day of the long weekends; I took an effort of taking leave on Friday (hey, who wants to work on your special day, right?) and ended up meeting a long-lost friend for meals. Having 2 desserts in one day, Pavlova in Alexis and Pecan Pie in Harrods Cafe maybe was not a good idea... I ended up with stomach discomfort that night XP This girl was a good friend during my senior high school time so it was good to catch up- with her already having 3 children of her own, I realized how different our lives are now.

>> On Saturday I went to an ex-high school mate's sister's wedding. Since their mom passed passed away a couple of years ago, she took the role of wedding planner. Through her, I met (via whatsapp) the rest of the group and during the wedding,
I met one of the girls... how nostalgic... since I kept low ever since I moved away when I was 16. I'm glad his particular girl didn't change much and I'm honored that her mom still remembers me :D
But somehow... I feel that the dynamic we had 15 years ago has somehow changed.... especially because I moved away and the group were still stay together till end of high school. Maybe it's just me... *shrugged*

Yesterday my best friend whom I've known since I was 7 came and we ended up shopping for presents for her friend's children's birthday party and then lunch at Umai-Ya. She wanted to try the Wagyu and I satisfied my craving for sashimi (very much blamed Oh-chan for this to be honest).

And today, after my session at HO-prep course, an ex-collegemate a.k.a. fellow MO came and picked me up for lunch at Acme Bar and Coffee. The dessert was SUPER yummy! But the ice-mocha was so-so... Meeting her as usual we ranted whatever we need of working life XP

And that's how I exceeded my food budget for this month AND next month T___T

Although, the reason for this entry isn't exactly to rant about my weekends, but more for the upcoming rotation I'm going to T_T Our hospital is the referral centre for Rheumatology and Endocrine, so being in General Medicine, we have to do Nephrology rotation as well as part of the training. The nearest centre for Nephro is in Serdang and to be honest I'm very reluctant to go... not so much because of the change of hospital and department, but more of because I have to drive T____T Yeah, I'm spoilt like that... I don't want to drive *cries* After almost 2 years of taking train (and I'm telling you how many vids I can spend watching during the train ride) driving to work early in the morning, trying to find parking spot and be stuck in the jam on the way home sound dreadful to me T_T

Bleeeeehhhhhhhhhhh! SO not looking forward to those orz someone save meh!

On the other note, I'm working on the posts of "7 in Japan" at , with little tidbits on the trip, so hopefully once that is done, I can go back on regular entries :)

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MJ! Stay cool and please produce more spectacular concerts! :D
higure_san: (Default)
My schedule for the next two weeks:

Tonight: 2 long case reports to be done
Sat: Sunathon (out of the house at 6.30 a.m.) / presentations prep
Sun: Health Intervention Programme / invited to an open house

2 case presentations + 1 tute presentation
Exams- long case; at any day, at any time starts Wed [<- was brought forward... what?!]

Next Sat/Sun:
Study~ Study~ Exams the coming week~
MERCY's volunteer for UN's disaster training

Next weekdays: Exams- theory paper (probably Mon) + leftover case presentations + logbook filling

Next, next Weekends: Bridesmaid for my cousin's wedding

Then break! Finally! [kinda sad to leave Surgery though]
But before that, adrenaline rush for the next two weeks...
Missy... prepare mentally for the lack of sleep and extreme tiredness, yeah? >.<
*cross fingers*


Oct. 15th, 2008 09:01 pm
higure_san: (Writer)
Surgery's starting!

I like! ;)

Though the rounds are shorter (max like an hour!), by the time I got home in the evening, I'm flat. That doesn't take an account of the on-calls yet!

Demo ne.... I like it. I think I'll probably choose this as something that I want to specialize in in the future, provided I don't find other more interesting discipline. Psychiatry is another area that I have an interest in. We shall see it next year then, shan't we? ;)

But for now, I'm loving surgery! XD
higure_san: (Default)
I just had to pause AnS103 and write this here -> I WANT that cheese cuisine!! Cheese is not really my favourite food in the world (I'd go anytime, anywhere for coffee, but not cheese), but just looking at those fluffy stuff... I want O_o;;; Especially that Epoisses souffle... I want...

I showed my sister and housemate 24 hour vid on Nino's part (where he visited Kanato-kun and Ai-chan) and we ended up discussing about hydrocephalus while watching it... They were doing Paediatrics and I don't think they've seen this kind of case before (I certainly haven't seen it since I'm doing Medicine) so it was quite interesting for us.

Gah, people in O&G finished their exams today! And now I'm stressed... not only for the horrible day yesterday but also for the next paper. Having to have to know 'everything under the sun' is no fun at all...
Yeah... before you could go to that exciting stage like in 'Code Blue', there will be exams, exams and more exams (which I don't mind the written paper, but viva/long case/practical... I dread those)

Wondering why I'm online? It's because it's exam week and I'm at the place where I can access internet easily. Starting Surgery posting next week, I'll be on hiatus again *sigh* (dreading the late night on-calls)
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